In exactly 75 days, I’ll be 29 years old. Twenty. Nine.
I’m not stressing about it. I actually welcome 29. To be honest, I’ve lived a pretty cushy life thus far. That’s not to say I haven’t made my share of mistakes. Big mistakes. Or had my days where I was so poor that I had to eat ramen every day for breakfast, lunch and dinner. Can we say last week and hello sodium? Or cried over lost love. Actually, I won’t admit to that last one, cause I’m a real G and real G’s don’t cry.
So, at 28 years and 290 days old, I can honestly say I am happy with my life. This morning I woke up and I just felt good. I don’t know how or why, but there was just this really corny, sunny days and long walks type of positivity in the air. Either that or someone put something in my drink last night. Yet, I can’t help but think what’s next. What will 29 bring? And then 30?
I was just sitting here talking to one of my homeboys and I was telling him that I don’t know if it’s because I’m getting older or for other reasons that I won’t get into here, but I actually think that I might, possibly, maybe be open to being in a relationship. Whew, I think I just got a little heartburn typing that sentence out. And it’s not that I was ever opposed to it, despite what any of my friends might tell you, I do have a heart. I just never felt like I needed to be in a relationship. If that makes sense.
But like I said, as I sit here and think about what’s next, maybe that’s it. I’ve got my career. I own my home. I’ve got great friends and an even greater family. I even have a feisty little one-eyed pug. Now, I just need a guy who doesn’t annoy the shit out of me. But don’t all of y’all start throwing your numbers at me all at once now.
And then again, I might be sitting here a year from now re-reading this blog post, trying to figure out what was I on and why?
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Welcome to happiness and self-acceptance Victoria. Once you are happy with yourself and your life it will make it even easier to find that special person. I honestly don’t think you need a relationship. You may want one, but never need. I see us as the same person. Once I was happy with myself and my accomplishments, although I’ve never need a relationship it came with such ease. There was no drama, and first thing he told me on our first date was he was happy to finally to meet a woman who was not looking for him to complete them. Until the age of 27 I always thought that I needed a relationship to make me happy. So I took a step back made sure my ducks were in order, I.E I was happy with my finances, my look, my health, and my personal life. Meaning I didn’t have any open doors from my past relationships. Well the purpose of post of this is to say congratulation of reaching self-acceptance and happiness at 29, most women are near 59 and still have not found what you found. Good luck on finding a man of the same wave as you. It will make your newly found relationship so much better and easier.
Thanks for the welcome Kimaras31!